27/05/2003, Tuesday

I cried again today (I don't know why, maybe because sad, maybe because angry).. today planning to go out, but again (yes, again)cancelled due to poor attendance, I don't know is it because I'm a bad organizer, or my friends' attitute, nobody is at fault and I don't wish to comment... you may think this is ridiculous, a man of 20 years old, stil crying? but at least I'm better than those who hide their feelings to deceive themselves... whenever I cry, I will isolate myself or immerse myself in music, and at same time reflect myself, life, and think a lot of things.. I went out of home for fresh air and took a long bus trip to west mall, look look see see here and there, maybe that will let me think better... don't worry, I'm back to myself when I'm writing this blog